GNU~~我的老山羊

TOS K/S (or is that WS/LN?) wallpaper by asukajude, who gave me permission to post it here to share with the English Trek community. :) Original pic from the wonderful people at shatnoy_rpf. Click to enlarge.

荔枝小姐做的壁纸，也是我目前台式机的壁纸。(手提机的是…………红楼梦。) 点击放大。



荔枝：忽然觉得它好黄好暴力XD
某蝶：XX未遂？
荔枝：对。船长在解释。大副人妻了，所以没有提出抗议。

《和Summer在一起的500天》让有故事的男女都多少会心有戚戚焉的感觉，也许真正生活中的你是Summer，也许你的恋人是Summer，但有一点，如果没有Summer，你不会有现在的生活和正在进行式的平淡生活。这部电影没有happy ending，有的是对感情的感悟，对爱情的另一种定义。也许一对男女有了好感，吻了，牵手了，一起快乐的逛宜家，甚至有和谐美好的sex，但仅此而已，不代表这就有了个结果，也不代表这种快乐会永远延伸下去没有厌倦。保鲜期是多久，恋爱中的人是不考虑也不愿意去考虑的，但确实存在。Summer喜欢Tom，但只是喜欢，骨子里想要的归属感，让人把指环心甘情愿套在手指的感觉和喜欢是不相干的两码事。如果爱情里两人同时有了注定和归宿的感觉，走入某种固定关系，比如公开的男女恋人或是婚姻的可能极大；但只是一方沉溺呢，那也许会恨Summer一辈子或是被迫的成长，接受下一个Autum的出现。

说实话，剧中的Summer我其实很不喜，作为女性的视角，这个妞实在bitch的名副其实。确实长得很美好，浓密的刘海，窈窕的身材，蓝色忽灵灵地大眼睛，声音沙哑低沉，说话小动作不断...但太过自我，太过随性，随意到她最后选择一个Tom之外的陌生人结婚让人觉得只是编导为了打击Tom而故意为之，这种女人会有安定不折磨男人的一天吗？会放弃不切实际随性的行为吗？但真的，Summer是存在的，她们的存在只是为了让你清醒，生命中的过客始终是个过客，无论你们曾经有过怎样的天雷勾地火，有过怎样的刻骨铭心，又曾经有过多少对未来的憧憬。

记得我做过Summer，那个Tom是个不知看上我哪点的痴情种子，我们由别人介绍认识，第二天他就冒雨约我出门吃饭，他会利用午休一小时的时间打车到我公司楼下接我吃一顿午饭，然后打车再回单位上班；他会在认识不久到处介绍我认识他的亲戚朋友；也会很细心的留意我的一言一行以给予出其不意的小惊喜来讨好我...可是我始终觉得他只是一个比较善良的人，没有太多和他类似的感触，于是三个月后的一天，我约他喝茶，很直接的告诉他我们做一般朋友会比较好。他是一个很知趣的人，那会大家也都年轻脸皮也薄，看到无法挽回他竟然更换了手机号痛苦很久，当然也都是介绍人后来告诉我的。过了很久在经历了我的Summer之后，也曾在辗转难眠的夜里想起过他，这是报应么，这应该也是种destiny吧。我的Summer也是个暧昧模棱两可的人，磨了三年才让我最后清醒的明白，现在跟我求婚的才是我应得的Autum。Autum未必个个都是真命天子，但绝对是一个新的开始，了解Summer最终不是自己那杯茶的人，是一定要试着让Autum走进你的生活，也许另一扇通向大道的门就这么开启了。

p.s.我喜欢片子里所有的音乐，让人的心跟着融化。我喜欢饰演Tom的演员，童星出身，看到他虽然已28岁的眉眼，仍然会在脑子里浮现他曾经在其他电影里出现的可爱童真的笑脸。是啊，我们都要长大，都要面对尴尬和矛盾的感情，付出过的不要后悔，但不要太想当然，也许某天一点点小缺点就足以浇灭情人那曾经炙热的火焰，接下来的倦怠是谁都阻止不了的。我可以努力做的更好，但并不是每个人都可以挽回的。四季的更替无可改变，夏天过去，果实累累的秋天是一定会来的不是么。

もののけ姫 - 久石譲コンサート2006 (Mononoke Hime, as performed at Joe Hisaishi Concert 2006). I love how the instrument erhu was incorporated so beautifully.

And this version, with lyrics, sung by Akikawa Masafumi and Teshima Aoi. Starts at around 2:35.

張り詰めた弓の震える弦よ
月の光にざわめくそなたの心
研ぎ澄まされた刃の美しい
その切っ先によく似たおまえの横顔

悲しみと怒りに潜むまことの心
を知るは森の精
もののけたちだけ
もののけたちだけ

( English version. )

The happy_trekmas fic is FINALLY coming along, but I am having difficulty writing about the sexytimes part while having Natsukawa Rimi's Kanayo Kanayo stuck in my head.

Anyway. Heard about how NUMB3RS might be cancelled after this already shortened season. Not sure how I feel about that.

At this point I don't feel like I'm invested in the series anymore. I don't know why it just hasn't stayed with me like Bones have. I guess my interest in it died when my OTP (Larry/Charlie) died. I mean, I don't know, I like Aminta fine, but I just don't see the chemistry between her and Charlie. Don/Liz died too, which is a shame because I love Liz. (Aya Sumika? Hotter than hell...WHY IS SHE MARRIED!) I do hope she gets into a serious relationship with Colby, though. Colby is such a nice kid. And the way she calls him "Granger"? *_*

Speaking of ships, though, in a rather freaky coincidence, I watched Addams Family Values yesterday...and OMG, Peter MacNicol (aged 39 at the time) was in it as an annoying/fakey camp counselor while a 15-year-old David Krumholtz was a kid at the camp. This was, of course, some twelve years before they would work together again in NUMB3RS with their characters as my (previous?) OTP. (Oh, Larry/Charlie, I don't know how I got into your ship, but it was awesome while it lasted. (And Miriam Heddy's fics, damn.)

[玛丽和马克思].Mary.and.Max.2009.DVDRip.XviD-TheWretched 不咋好看。。

[库尔特是残酷的].Kurt.Turns.Evil.2008.BDRip.X264-TLF 没看完，觉得没啥意思。。

http://xkcd.com/660/

Lately I've had problems sleeping. I thought it was stress from the latest batch of assignments, but when for the third night in the row I wasn't going to sleep a wink all night I realized that it was the dry air.

My skin is extremely sensitive to the humidity and getting up every hour to apply more lotion is not cool. T.T (I noticed something was wrong when I spent the whole day Thursday drinking water and still got a dry throat.)

I put two dishes of water by my heater last night. I think it helped, since I actually did sleep a bit, but I'm still terribly itchy and trying not to writhe in discomfort. Maybe I need more water there.

And it's only the start of winter. I can't wait for the season to pass.

Java Servlet接触了有三个月吧，胡说几句
- Servlet 显然搭了一个很好的Web应用架子，不过对REST似乎不太友好，不管怎样，有Amazon这样的应用吧
- JSF(v1.2)还不够出众，不够吸引我
- Spring作为一个Bean框架基本把复杂的J2EE标准实现比下去了
- Tomcat,JBOSS被广泛部署，商用的应该也不少，不知道是不是Weblogical也就是极限情况下好点？
- 想想Sun的OpenSolaris, Java, 为开源做了很多，结果被Oracle这样的拜金公司收购了，无奈啊

Java之外学到的很酷的东西
- Git，用了这个再看CVS, Subvision就有点喜新厌旧了
- Maven, 写一次pom.xml，到处编Java....是的，连我的那个OpenBSD 4.4也可以
- Antlr & SpringTemplate， 很厉害的两个跨语言的library.

技术对我而言，欣赏，好奇代替了功利，（日常上班基本用的很少），不清楚这个状态能持续多久。

(跟男人之前一直在MSN上吵架.吵得非常凶.)
진우 说: 你再说就分手.说真的.
Miracle 说: 现在你也会要挟我了.
Miracle 说: 但我真的好怕~
진우 说: ...
진우 说: 你很讨厌啊~~~
진우 说:   >_<
Miracle 说: - - 凸
Miracle 说: (画外音)... and they live happily ever after.

昨晚，和lili聊天后心情一直不错。但写信写到5点这事真是天理不容= = （没办法英文太差）。

Ugly Betty是这样一部好电影——传播创意的同时传播爱与美！我在其中学到很多跟工作相关和不相关的知识。即使能记住的不多= =
比如最近的一集（4s4），主题是关于真诚。
当然这里有度的考虑。一想到一腔热血泼到墙壁上，我就觉得：唉……
所以这种时候，召唤钝感力啊钝感力！

猫最近爱在桌子上睡觉。似乎乐意和我靠得很近的样子。但是我一凑上去打算和他亲昵他却跑掉了。
不知不觉会将人类主观臆想套用在他身上：若近若离的情人，真是美好。
今天给他洗澡时一边洗一边安慰他，他也算听话噢，不抓不咬。觉得我们的感情又进一步啦XD
他还爱发出咕噜咕噜撒娇的小声音，真是个傻小子。

英雄Heroes第四季08

茕蝶：不是金玉之缘吗？我和某人说，K是黄金S是玉
茕蝶：然后就扯出了S是K的玉镯子为了保护K自己碎掉了
荔枝：＝[]＝
铃铛：玉碎……你真的是瓜娘么喂
荔枝：她是瓜娘没错，但是丈母娘都是疼女婿的……
铃铛：所以KS就是金镶玉？奥运冠军啊= =
荔枝：捶地爆笑
茕蝶：.............还真就是金镶玉
铃铛：菲尔普斯有八块，原来他是KS饭啊！
茕蝶：打滚打滚
荔枝：狂笑
铃铛：原来他就是为了证明KS王道么……小孩不容易啊，摸下巴
荔枝：游那么猛辛苦了
米糕：肯定回到家里把八块逐一挂在企业号模型上然后激动地结巴着Once you go to Kirk, you never go back
茕蝶：我知道了，他的前世一定是K&S救的那条鲸鱼
荔枝：哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
铃铛：笑死……游了八块来报恩……
茕蝶：感谢我吧，我解开了这个体育界谜团
荔枝：号外，菲鱼力夺8金的秘密
荔枝：Rin，果然你加入就会y出类似紫笋道号之类的爆料耶
铃铛：代价就是我的黄金护身符变成“我日你”了……

Allow Your Own Inner Light To Guide You

There comes a time when you must stand alone. You must feel confident enough
within yourself to follow your dreams. You must be willing to make sacrifice.

You must be capable of changing and rearranging your priorities, so that your
final goal can be achieved.

Sometimes, familiarity and comfort need to be challenged. There are times when
you must take a few extra chances and create your own realities.

Be strong enough to at least try to make your life better.

Be confident enough that you won't settle for a compromise just to get by.

Appreciate yourself by allowing yourself the opportunities to grow, develop,
and find your true sense in this life.

Don't stand in someone else's shadow when it's your sunlight that should lead
the way.

Work hard at what you like to do and try to overcome all obstacles.

Laugh at your mistakes and praise yourself for learning frow them.

Pick some flowers and appreciate the beauty of nature.

Say hello to strangers and enjoy the people you know.

Don't be afraid to show your emotions, laughing and crying make you feel
better.

Love your friends and family with your entire being they are the most
important part of your life.

Feel the calmness on a quiet sunny day.

Find a rainbow and live your world of dreams, always remember life is better
than it seems.

( 关于巧克力和糖球KS的策划过程 )

另外……

茕蝶：我要继续我的GV导演之路，有没有什么建议啊？米糕让我拍Amok Time
荔枝：……用糖球？痛苦地颤抖着的糖球？被掐得半死的糖球？
茕蝶：.....你要考虑到技术问题
米糕：两根牙签就搞定了嘛。然后再找两根白线，往黄上一套一勒。
荔枝：……我就是在考虑技术问题所以觉得这种东西你还是买了熊再拍……
茕蝶：买熊也不能拍XXOO啊！你当着都是啥了！！又不是BJD关节可以动
米糕：…………那你买熊干啥
茕蝶：…………………………抱着看TOS？
荔枝：………………你看，大家都抱着怎样的动机在期待你买熊啊

Candy porn! Thanks to my collaborator, Miss Ricecake (alexwish2005). Click to see full pic!

中文版点这里。(米糕：“昔有糖球Kirk，得一朱古力，大喜，以之诱Spock，遂成好事。”)

37.3摄氏度，体温。
怕甲流。怕艾滋，怕很多。自己的怯懦由此又暴露无疑。

男装普遍比女装好看。

还是因为国内的女装都太爱做花强调女人味了。

昨天跟Yo去Sephora买指甲油.BA是一个一看就是gay的男人!而且还是小受的!(后来我跟Yo交流了一下我的看法,她也是那么认为的…).就很瘦弱啊,戴黑框眼镜.我看了一下,他有涂透明色的指甲油…重点是,gay们都比较bitch.他推荐指甲油的时候,啊我真的没见过这么毒舌的.他对Yo说:"你太黑了,这个颜色显老""这个颜色像灰指甲”"笑得我快趴下了,他居然一点反应都没有.这就更加坚定了我认为他是gay的感受.一般是直男做BA的话,对于女人的笑都会比较嘻嘻哈哈的,但他完全没有哦!!!完全没有哦!!!就绝缘的!后来我和Yo都选了glittering系列的.我选了red ruby,她选了violet amethyst.我觉得好好看哦~可是上班也不能涂…
还在H&M玩了很久headband…戴黑人最喜欢那种金光闪闪的(我真的怀疑除了黑人和菲律宾人,在亚洲哪会有人买),戴完自己狂笑.再加上那一堆大大的金色hoop earring和粗链子,超hoochie mama…而如果across forehead又很70年代,差点我就想唱”Staying Alive”了!我们就霸了一个镜子一直笑一直笑,被某些所谓的淑女鄙视……

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我妈说这次去东北给亲戚上坟,最后整个就变成了黑色喜剧.
她们坐着小车到农村的郊外(真的很郊外…),那天风很大,趵突狼烟,真是一片萧瑟啊.我小姨拿着纸钱一边烧一边念念有词地说"奶奶啊,你出来看看我们吧.".结果农村的土地上,有一块被家禽踩过的坑,我小姨脚又小,就陷在里面了,但她浑然不觉.钱烧完了,我小姨准备走了,结果脚已经陷在里面,她噗通就倒在地上了.怎么拔都拔不出来…
这时一直站在远处的司机默默说了句:"显灵了.既然都来到家门口了,就进来看看吧."
………………………………

For one class, I have a study group: we meet once a week to work on an assignment together. For another class, all our assignments are group work. For the third, my partner and I agreed to work on the last two projects together.

Now, normally I don't like working with people. There was one particularly disastrous time when one of my group members didn't understand English (she spoke it, but not at the higher level needed to express complex ideas). Then another group member completely snapped and berated the rest of us for being incompetent. It was to the point where the rest of us were scared to introduce new ideas or point out problems because it would redirect her wrath at us.

But there is something coldly comforting about being able to go to your groupmate(s), say you have a problem with something, and find out they have the same thing. I admitted to my study group that if it wasn't for them, I'd probably break down and cry in frustration for not being able to figure things out on my own.

某蝶：老子想要那个熊啊，大哭
荔枝：我也想要啊！！！！！！！！
某蝶：http://www.vermontteddybear.com/SellGroup/Kirk-Bear.aspx?bhcp=1
米糕：……山寨一个
某蝶：你们看，这样的船长啊！！！！
荔枝：船長你丫看著我幹嘛呀幹嘛我又沒錢買你！！！！
米糕：你需要的是2个熊，然后缝2套衣服
某蝶：就连靴子都有，我泪奔了
荔枝：我將來結婚的時候要脅老公買這個當結婚禮物好了
某蝶：………………我当时的戒指也就够买这么一对……可不可以退货啊…………
荔枝：大笑，你自己那隻可以拿去換熊，然後你老公不同意，於是你只能買一隻，就徹底杯具了
某蝶：我们没有配对的戒指，就他给我买了一只，平时我也不戴……估计我卖了他也不知道。对了15英寸是多少啊？
荔枝：38.1厘米，蠻大的
某蝶：有一个前臂长么？不包括手掌。而且最奇怪的是为啥我第一想买船长……
荔枝：我覺得有前臂＋手掌長呢。
某蝶：不会吧？
荔枝：我也是想買船長……估計是因為他胖
某蝶：…………………………………………
荔枝：抱起來舒服，我是這個意思⋯⋯
某蝶：我觉得是因为觉得可以抱着他说“船长啊你去帮我把阿瓜拐回来吧”
荔枝：哈哈哈哈哈
某蝶：然后抱着他看TOS可以一起HC阿瓜 = =
荔枝：不過大副熊的耳朵真的萌死了
某蝶：不过真的，船长的要胖些，圆滚滚的肚皮…………真写实啊

Written for the ST XI kink meme prompt by snortingcoke "Pike told Kirk: 'Your father banged 800 women, I dare you to do better.'" No. I’m serious. Why are you looking at me like that? I blame dissociate for this!

Title: 800 (like 300, only with 500 more)
Author: Renata Lord (snowlight)
Pairing: Kirk/Spock (crack K/S, but still K/S)
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: ~1,100
Disclaimer: Still not making money off this. Where did I go wrong?

"Infinite combinations of infinite perversity."
—Spock, to Kirk, in Birthday Traditions by corpus_invictus

( 'Good God man! Have you slept with everybody on this ship?' )

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Finis

I couldn't sleep at all last night. Much tossing and turning, and it was a huge effort to drag myself out of bed this morning. I'm thinking that it's because I'm worrying so much about the project due Monday that I'm certainly not finished (that, and the air in my house suddenly got dry, which drove my skin crazy all day and night yesterday).

I'm awake now, but feel a headache coming on. Going to see if I can finish my work, take a shower, then sneak in a nap before work. I was extremely tempted to call in sick, but I'd rather swallow aspirin and tough it out for four hours now than make up a week at the end.

I'd rather save sick time for times when I literally cannot get out of bed. I'm not exactly eager to go to work today, because piano banging + fighting with belligerent students + headache DNE fun, but I better do it now than later.

http://xkcd.com/659/